I am so stupid. I do stupid things that I know I shouldn’t do but I do them anyway and I end up hurt. Why do I continue to do these things? I don’t know that I’ll ever really recover mental health wise. I always end up sad and hurt, hurt, hurt. And I do it to myself or allow it to be done. And all I really want I can never have. There’s no possibility of that. Going to the psych hospital, I don’t know, I’m not sure how much good it did me. Whatever though. Battle on, battle through.